Question by Ariah: What would you do if your life sucked this bad and you were only 15?
im 15 years old. i will be 16 in less than a month.
ive been in the court system since i was 14.
i was locked up for 8 months in juvenile detention and 2 programs.
ive been to detention a lot, i have lots of charges.. 15 misdemeanors.
im facing my second felony in court on march 18th.
im fat and ugly… my family cant afford counseling or medication for depression and A.D.D.
I was kicked out of my high school and its the only high school within 60 miles of where i live.
i started doing drugs at 13 and have tried just about anything, i will do anything i can get, my current addiction is cough medicine, pain pills, sex, meth, weed, and cigarettes. the only love i ever had cheated on me and played mind games and abused me. my dad is abusive and addicted to meth, verbally and so is my mom. the only person i could trust is my sister and she is addicted to pain pills BAD and she is slowly dying. i have a brother with aids and addicted to heroin. i have had sex with 4-5 guys with no relationships trying to get pregnant, no protection. at least 10 guys more than 10 times each I cut myself, and you can say its for attention all you want, but i will only do it when i get yelled at, it calms me down, and punching walls… i have always had trouble making friends, partly because i cant control my actions or what comes out of my mouth. i’m a compulsive liar to my parents.. they offen tell me what a waste of a person i am, how i eat too much, how i wont ever get anywhere… i grew up in a home where my dad was never home and i never heard “i love you” (im in tears just from typing that) i drink whenever i can and i always end up drinking too much, that i pass out of have sex with someone and not remember it. i’m a thief. i steal money from anyone. i steal cough medicine from the stores. ive overdosed a lot on it. i have a very ugly face and everything about me is pretty much unlovable. the only people that hang out with me are people who do bad things “sometimes” and im the kind of person that is always doing bad things. lots of people in this small town hate me, and ever since i was in kindergarten some kids my age were told to stay away from me… i will do anything for acceptance and im addicted to the feeling of being able to say “ive done that before” idk what to do and your probably not going to answer this now because i sound like a horrible person.. oh well go ahead tell me how im wasting this world’s oxygen.
or you can give me some support or advice?
I have such low self esteem that ive been experimenting with anorexia since i was very little, and lately ive been throwing up every single meal, purposely, for almost 2 weeks
the last grade i ACTUALLY PASSED was 6th grade.
when i was 14, right before i got locked up i was raped and while i was locked up i got a call and they told me “the guy that raped me left town and possibly went back to mexico” he was a mexican….. it was eating me alive while i was locked up and its getting worse over time. sometimes i cant sleep, i have dreams, and i cry whenever i think about it…
whats even worse is that my probation officer told me that on my court date on March 18th she is going to recommend that i be put in community placement.. like a foster home…… im so scared i dont know what to do! HELP? please
Best answer:
Answer by wanderer
Sounds really fun, way to be!!!!
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Actually, no one can do anything “for you”. If you don’t wish to accept change or want change and a good life, then you will continue on as is. When you are truly ready to change yourself, you won’t need much help … You will just make the changes and move ahead.
We all have choices and good and bad times in life. But in the end, we make our own outcomes. No blaming others, just admitting we need to change & doing it.
Again, it’s all your choice. And you know that already.
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I honestly think your making things up. Your parents are probably really good parents and your just in your teenage angst stage. And if they were really meth heads you would have been in a foster family years ago. I hope your parents see this and ban you off the computer for life.
And if your life is soo bad then YOU change it. Its your fault not the worlds.
I think you are wanting some attention. I was looking at answers and you answered quite a few but this is one that I found interesting…..the question was about Bipolar and her being upset you said….
‘I am with you 100%!!!!!
People just need to keep their opinions to themselves.
I have a defiance disorder and so everyone thinks that since I cant control my impulsive bad behavior, i need to be locked up and have no friends.
Find a non-judgmental church..
that’s what I decided that I’m going to do.
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15 year old brain.’
40 minutes ago
My question is if we all need to keep our opinions to our self why are you asking for it????? Maybe you need to see a therapist
Stop waiting for your circumstances to change, but change yourself. Look, a lot of people are dragging suitcases full of tragedy and drama with them. You can choose to have this old suitcase that’s heavy to take along or this nifty one that makes it easier for you. It’s the same baggage. Your choice how to carry it and your choice what to make of your future.
I could go on an Oprah-esque ramble about how bad my life has been, but that’s not interesting and certainly not helpful. So instead of sitting here and thinking about how f’ed up everything is, think about what you can do to make the best out of it. Talk to your probation officer. Tell him/her what you want (another chance? Other options? Your pick…) and tell him/her that you can’t change where you’re coming from, but that you can change where you’re going.
It’s up to you. There’s a good future for you. Go get it.
You really need good people in your life. People that can support you and stop the slippery slope you have been headed down. What I can tell you is all the bad stuff that has happened to you and what you have done does not reflect on you as a person. You are worthwhile and are very valuable person. You are deserving of love but did not get it from your parents. You can recover – your experiences one day will help others in similar situations. Things you can try is to go to a church – they can counsel and support you, get placement with a good family, seek out a psychologist or social worker to help you. You can recover from what has happened – all the best!
Oh my god darling im so sorry you’ve had such a hard life.. I am in tears just from reading that.
Low self esteem is such a bitch, try to tell yourself that you are an awesome person every day, even if you don’t believe it. I had the worst self esteem when I was 15 (18 now) and gradually came to realise that the people who had the best lives were not the prettiest or the smartest or the most talented, but the people who thought they were brilliant regardless of anything that happened, and didnt give a shit about what anybody thought of them. At the end of the day, you have a right to be free and not to be crippled by anyone elses opinion.
About the drugs thing, I used to do drugs too but then I thought that its ‘no pain no gain’ in life…the best happiness and feelings Ive felt didnt come from pills or coke but from actually reaching my goals that I set out, ie passing exams etc. Sounds bent I know, but I wouldnt take time to write it if it wasnt true.
About your parents and early life..it must have been so so hard, and I have a load of respect for you for getting through the bad times. Remember that in life, no one can make you do or feel anything, and its always your choice no matter what happens to you. People can do and say things to you, but you can always control how you feel and what you do about them. Just because you have had a rough past, doesnt mean you cant rise up and triumph over everthing thats happened you, and people that have hurt you. I did, and its the best feeling in the world, much better than drugs!
You can do it, if you read biographies of famous people some of them have had the worst childhoods ever, and look ant them now. Plus, not to be patronising but you are still just 15 which is great cause you havent fucked up anything too important yet. :)
If I were you, id try set goals for myself week by week, starting now. Could you get out of your abusive situation by moving town to relatives and maybe move school? You should also try avail of free counselling as soon as possible..seriously tell someone you got raped you definitely need help with regards to that, you poor pet.
You have acknowledged that your life is on a downward spiral and needs to change, which is awesome cause you are halfway there. Now you just need to take action.. set positive goals and go for counselling. I know its terrifying, but a foster home might’nt be the worst idea.
Remeber, this life is yours and you can be whatever you want, you just need to focus and have ambition to achieve your goals . You are stronger than you think you are. Good luck hun, i really do hope you are okay. From your post I can tell that you are a lovely person and even though ive never met you I genuinely care about you xoxo
lifes what you make it..
Hey Hun,
Don’t listen to any of the people that are being jerks. I believe you. I think what you need to do is find a local church and go. I think that it is great that you are asking for help and that you realize that there needs to be a change in your life. I do think though that the reason you did put this up, is because you desperately want love, that is why I think that you should go to church and discover the love God has for you. He still loves you no matter what you have done, you are his daughter and he will always love you.
***For I know the plans I have for you declares the LORD plans to prosper you and not to harm you. plans to give you a hope and a future -Jeremiah 29:11***
You are beautiful and I hope that God will guide you onto the right path, I will pray for you!!