Question by TasteOfInk: What’s the point of living if nothing good has happened yet?
I’m 17, 10/29/08 my best friend killed himself, and idk why but it didn’t really affect me emotionally at all(I never talked to anyone about it). A couple weeks ago I moved from Michigan to Tennessee to get away from my mom and her dick boyfriend and I don’t even miss any of my friends or family. when i was 13 my stepdad (my dad ditched out on me before i was born and i have no clue who he is(and that doesn’t affect me emotionally either) and my stepdad got with my mom before i was 1 so he was always like my real dad) got addicted to meth and started getting really aggresive,he was constantly yelling at everyone and breaking evertying and he threatened to kill us several times, my mom finally ended up divourcing him and that didn’t affect me either. Not even a year after that my mom ended up getting with some asshole who was constantly being a dick to me just for his entertainment. she then had a kid with him even tho we were already struggleing with money. and none of that affected me either . About 6 months ago I started thinking about killing myself, which really confuses me because compared to alot of people my life is good, and at first i didn’t think anything of it but it was constantly getting worse, about 4 months ago I started cutting and once again I have no clue why, I just randomly get urges to do it and the more i ignore it the worse it gets and the the longer i wait the deeper i end up cutting, so I guess I do have emotions but… well I can’t really feel them. and also I remember almost nothing that happened in my life past age 14 but from what I’ve been told all of my cousins and my sister and step brother were constantly making me miserable. When ever someone ask me to list good qualities about myself i freeze because I can’t think of any. I have a lot of people that i chill with but I don’t have any true friends, i’ve had 3 good friends in my life, 2 turned out to be backstabbing ***holes who were just using me and the other killed himself. I’ve had a few girlfriends but i didn’t love any of them, I’ve actually never loved anyone, not even family, and that really disturbs me. last year i spend 2 months in juvie because my mom called the cops and said that i threatened to kill her even though i could never threaten to kill someone, and then told me that i got what i had coming because i did bad in school even tho i tried my hardest i just could never concentrate on anything longer then 2 minutes. I’ve been like that my whole life and when i was going to school it made my life hell because of all the trouble i’d get in at home for failing classes. there were a few years in my life where i was really bad with my mom, constantly flipping out and cussing her out, I finally got it under controll last year but she still constantly throws it in my face and acts like I’m a horrible person even though i hated myself after every fight i got in with her. I’ve had a couple therapist, and I’ve been in an anxiety counselling group and idk why but i could never tell them about wanting to kill myself and cutting, i really couldn’t tell them any of my problems, I always feel like an ***hole when i complain about my life because there are sooo many people out there that have it so much worse then me. Sorry for all of the typing i know that no one wants to real all of that, i just got in sordove a trance when i started typing and couldn’t stop, half of those were suppressed memories i didn’t remember until i started typing, that’s why all of the events i put are in a completely random order.
But the thing is i have absolutely no one I can talk to, I’m currently living in my cousins living room 700 miles away from my guardian so i have no way to get counselling. and there’s no way in hell I could talk to my cousin about stuff like that.
I’ve had a couple comments telling me to stop being lazy and actually do something and what not.. I have to work my ass off every day just to eat, my cousin gives me a roof over my head and that’s it. I tried to get back into school but I can’t due to lack of credits so now I have to find a way to get money to take the GED when I’m already struggleing to get money for food(I go a couple days at a time without eating) I’ve been trying to get an actuall job but no luck so far,
Best answer:
Answer by GUEST WHO again
what do you want someone to do what was the purpose of this question? all i can say is don’t be a weak and a coward those are the only ones that kill themselves you can become a man when ever you want and it looks like you need to do that now become a man and start your own life and no need to look back just start making some awesome life plans
Give your answer to this question below!
The purpose of living is to just go with the flow. That’s how we all, for the most part, live our lives. We just all go with the flow and then die…
For instance, most of us are pretty much expected to go to school, then go to college, graduate, earn your degree, find a job, get married, have kids, continue working and finally die…
The purpose to living is to rise above the hardships and find happiness.
Live for others if anything. I’m sure theres some out there
Dont be sorry as we all have issues in life and yours are some of many. You have been through alot and although your family may not have been good to you that is probably because they have their own issues. Im sure you love them because you wouldnt care at all if you didnt. Cutting yourself is not good because who knows if the next life is any better and besides you have so much to live for. I suggest you write what you feel is some form of diary and try calling the free counselling hotlines, they are free and helpful. My sister use to cut herself and thought life wouldnt get better but then she ended up married and now with 2 kids. If your life has not been as good as you want, it is up to you to make it better and dont feel sorry for yourself. I dont know you but the fact you have taken the time to go on here and write your feelings tells me you care about your life and of others. Im sure you will be missed if you were not around and Im sure your life will get better if you believe in god even if its not in a religious way. You dont like the way things have happened for you well then change your future as you are in charge of that, become successful, marry a beautiful girl and have children and then treat them as you wish you were treated. Dont hang around people who bring you down…start working if your not and save save save so you too can be successful in love, life and health. Think of it this way, there was a man with no shoes thinking his life was bad until he saw the man with no feet…..so be greatful for how far you’ve come and believe in yourself….you will overcome this time in your life and be stronger for it! Good luck and god bless you!
find a church and locate the minister NOW! you have had a depressing life with bad role models and selfishness. find a minister and talk to him about everything. i had a crappy life too, but why destroy yourself and your eternal life with god by killing yourself? That way you would be rewarding those horrible parents you had. lift yourself out of all that and start a brand new life. you can do it with help.don’t let them damage you anymore. just ask people to help you. you need caring people in your life. do it for yourself. you are in charge.find a church now!!!
Darling, you have your whole life to live yet. And I can tell you that life is wonderful. But your life is only what you make it to be. I have lived to be 63 years old and I have experienced a lot of ups and downs. Lately it seems more downs than ups but I am not ready to give up yet. I don’t have much, but you could come live with me if you are willing to work hard for what you want out of life. You could write to me at sharon2065@sbcglobal.net.
All I can say is that no one has a perfect life.. no one! And you can choose to get off your butt and get in school or get a job and make something of yourself or you can sit on a computer and post things like this. If you want someone to talk to you need to go to a therapist and get it all out. But when you become an adult you will find out the world is what you make of it and no one is responsible for you but You yourself.
You have survived all these pricks in your life and you will have to Surround your self with new people. Church or at work volunteer. You will find your nitch in life and fall in love and live a happy life bro.
It sounds like you could really use someone to talk to…ive only had two problems out of all of these. ones gettin into an arguement with my mom….yeah, our arguements are pretty bad…i scream, curse, and say alot of mean thing i regret afterwards….And two…ive had a couple of friends die and one commit suicide….The best way i dealt with this is sit down and tell someone how your feeling and the things that have been bothering you…find someone you feel comfortable with telling. It best to get it out then keep it in…This may be whats causing the urges to cut yourself….Keeping all these feelings built up…its not good…theres bound to be something bad come out of that. and about the whole not caring about anyone type of deal…open yourself up to people…once you start to see how they treat you with respect and show you how much they care for you…youll start to be the same way..Althought this can deff take sometime. Hope this helps! Good luck and take care :)
Dude then pick up the bible and get on your knees.
That was a long story and we all have one. THATS LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get a hobbie. Train to become a frisbee golfer or chessmaster.
I’m sorry for your pain. Don’t give up if you need someone to talk to just keep posting here most of the M&D are just as screwed up. lol :)
life is hard but its a privilege…. in life you have to suffer in order to grow and mold you into a better person…i know its hard but the whole purpose of life is to advance from all the obstacles that come your way.first of i would advise you to get a job so you can get your own place and make your own rules so you don’t have to listen to any crap. 2nd i would say find something you like doing whether its playing sports,video games,or computers, etc. and third just enjoy life…..trust me there’s a girl or friend out there for you. You just have to look elsewhere, there’s more than a billion people in this world there’s gotta be a match for you. don’t kill yourself ….you’ll deprive yourself from the wonders of this world.
I hope you feel better getting all that out of your system! I’ll tell you like I’d tell me kids life’s not fair get over it. Stop cutting yourself!!!!!!!!! I know you’re NOT stupid so, don’t do stupid things like that.
Your past is your past but, your future is for you to decide what your going to do with it. Sit down and figure out what you would like to do with the rest of your life. Besides play video games.
You can write! Your question proved that. Have you thought of starting a blog? I’ve got a word press blog myself. It keeps me out of trouble. And you can make money with it if you figure out what niche you want to be in and build a following. I’ve got buddies that make around 10K a month with theirs but, they have been at it longer than I have. The bottom line is you need a goal something to look forward to that gives you a reason to get up in the morning.
The more you help others the better you will feel about life and yourself. So, go be a blessing to someone and stop looking inward or backward at your past. Move forward and keep growing and learning.
The late Jim Rohn said “learn all you can because there’s nothing worse than being stupid. Unless you’re broke and stupid and that’s as bad as it gets. Unless your sick. Now that’s really bad to be sick, broke and stupid. That as bad as it gets unless you’re ugly. Now that’s really really bad to be ugly, sick, broke and stupid that’s as bad as it gets.” Here’s a link to his youtube video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQzIYhv04mc
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all this you tink hasn’t effected you has:
1. you never tallked about it meaning this is unhealty
2. after all this you want to die
go to a doctor you might have depression or something like that also get some friends or find your old ones becuase it sound like you havent given som1 a chance for you 2 know they love u
Dear Kid,
Life is like a hell until you grow up and laugh about all the bullshit that you thought was worth it but it really was not. Okay you need to stop tripping your life ain’t worst than some people. You are young and when your young life seem so unfair but it will get better. Iam telling you it really will so dint keep bashing your life move on and try to think positive. If you cant eat go work at Mc Donald’s at least you can eat for free and earn some money toward your Diploma. Stay strong and much love kid.
Sincerely,
KissyLuv
There is always going to be somebody who has had it harder than you, and you have had it harder than others. Just because someone elses problems seem bigger than yours does not change the effect your own experience has had on you. All of this has had an effect on you. Some cutters cut because it is a way to let out the pain inside of them, even when you dont know why you are doing it. It sounds like your mind has tried to block somethings from your past, maybe because it is or was to hard to deal with or you just didnt know how. I really wish you could get some help. I can tell it would be really hard for you to open up, and you might be suprised about what comes out when you do. There are places if you would try and look them up on the computer that may be able to provide you with help based on your income and whether or not you have insurance. I think you do love your mom based on the fact that u felt terrible after your fights with her. I think somewhere along the way you started going numb to people and events as a coping method. Being sucidal is an extremely bad place to be. I think maybe you couldnt tell anyone that out of fear, or if you tell someone then it makes it more real. It becomes harder to hide and push away. I will tell you your young life can get soooo much better. But with all you have been through and you have been through plenty I really think you are going to have to find someone qualified to help you. You got dealt a shitty hand, you did and it sucks! what sucks more is your the one left behind to pick up the pieces. But there it is…..there is hope life is full of better days, I am sorry you have to find them on your own, but once you can learn to open up and “love” you wont be alone anymore either. I wish you the best. Look and find help dont just read this and say well i cant because of this or that find it you have to. Once you do let them help you by whatever they think is best. Lots of luck to you trust me you have a life waiting on you, but its going to take time and work to move past this.